Star Grub Monstee Girl

This picture was taken in Oct 2006. We had just moved to our little country acreage here in Laidley and it was the house of laughter, love and heaps fun. Hannah loved to build. Her efforts on the new chook pen which we moved three times before its final resting place out the back, the vegie box with our now pumpkins growing ( i mean we have over 20 pumpkins growing now and Hannah missed seeing them), the dog pen for the police dogs to house when we get them is still not finished but we will get there. Hannah is sitting on the outside of the Dog pen in the mud!

Her grubby horse boots, jeans, shirt and skivvy were soaked right through but the laughter we heard, the words she said were just priceless. These are the memories I have and I am so blessed to have them.

This day though was hilariously funny. Not only was she muddy, grubby and doing her stuff but she also went for a swim with her big Sister Kelsi. The water was freezing yet she smiled and love it as she always did.

That night after no sleep and all that building it was time for bed. We couldnt find Kelsi or Hannah however this was not a strange combination in this house for both to go walk about. These two together, two of my girls (oldest and youngest girls) were like two Bonnies without Clyde. Although Im sure if Harry were older at the time, he would have taken great pride in being Clyde.

Hannah and Kelsi were asleep in the dog kennel! in their jimjams and both sound asleep and both snoring to the sound of the wind!! A blanket, mozzie repellant and a flash light were left behind for them. It was the first and only time Hannah really slept under the stars. She was always begging me to sleep on the verandah and typical mother response was "no", I wish now I have of said "YES and mummy will sleep with you".

I didnt sleep that night, I was so worried Hannah would wake up and Kelsi not hear her and she would go wondering off during the night. I kept my eyes open until 5am that night and waited for both sunshines to awaken to the bigger sunshine coming across the mountain. I was buggered yet Hannah always wore me out so that night was no different.

Memories like these are just priceless and I never knew how special these times were until we lost Hannah. For such a loving warm, affectionate child who just wanted to help everyone I am still struggling to find the answer to WHY? I guess we will never know why until I meet her again.

Ive often of late sat and looked at the dog pen from our bedroom window.... I wonder what it was really like to have a sister and how much fun it was to sleep in the dog kennel that night under the stars.

Hannah's certificate from the International Star registry has arrived. Her star is near the Jewel box which is located near the Southern Cross, it can only be seen early in the morning at around 4am! Its so typical of Hannah to be up early!

Everytime I wish upon a Star I wish that my daughter is hurling mud, dirt and creating havoc for all those up in heaven and teaching other angels that truly sleeping under stars was just wonderful the sky is always bright and its even brighter now with Hannah in it, Our hearts just ache because we all miss her so very much and long to hold her again and kiss her cheeky face.
Mummy loves you little Monstee Girl. Everytime I wish on a star I just wish I could have her back.

" Hannah, Shine on you crazy Diamond Girl " brother Andy at her funeral Eulogy 11th October 2007