Sitting here today working accounts I look back on my time with Hannah and well she knew everything that was important to her and she could argue logically with rationale and WIN! Why do toddlers do this? How did she do this? I have an assumption that Hannah's IQ was way over 125 without a doubt. Her recollection of data, dates, names and events amazed me.
I clicked on a link today in my task section of my old email folder on the old computer and it was the link to Ned Kelly. How ironic? I only told someone of this the other day. Hannah had typed Neds name out and the word GOOD next to it. Simple words for her type but she knew what it meant. I have always argued that Ned wasnt bad he was robbing from the rich and giving to the poor it was corrupted police force in Victoria at the time that was bad and they framed Ned. Of course I probably did Influence Hannah but I never asked her DO you think Ned was a good man or a bad man? Somehow my internal question was answered today and Hannah and I have the same thoughts, she just isnt here to tell me how or why she came to that conclusion. Today was a rather emotional day. Ive had a run in with a 'bad' person this week and to have this unasked question answered by Hannah and I never knew is like one of those "I am here with you Mummy" messages. Ive had a few lately I just hope that I get stronger ones as time goes on.
I am in awe of her intelligence, her smile, her being and her inspiration for learning but most of all I just miss the Little Me that would be sitting beside me at this time of night keeping me company and asking me how she could help?
Hannah you have been gone for 8 months now, it seems like only yesterday and I miss you with all my world and I struggle to do the simple things in life like wash a cup because my heart is still and always ache for you. Thank you for your message today I am so happy that you spelt the word GOOD on the computer but please next time dont yell it!
Hugs and kisses to my one and only ever
Purple Princess
Mummy
xxxxxx
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